you go for it girl!!
i'll look for you on top of the pops!!
stay happy! and have some chocolate!!

yay chocolate! *immediately breaks out in pimples*

HI, I JUST SAW THE WORD CHOCOLATE AND NOW AM GONNA EAT LOTS OF IT * ALSO BREACKS OUT IN PIMPLES*
LOL
(sorry about the capitals)

i have an idea, to get people's self esteem up, put in a list of all the good things about your self,
i'm not changing the subject of the thread, its just an idea.

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aaaww *huggles* thanks my fellow sister. (that was weird. if you guys don't understand, check out our siggys.. yeah)

You can still have a lil' crush on him.. but guys are just... uuuggghh!!! (no offense to our boys on here.. you guys are cool) tell ya what.. *gets a hershay bar* alright *breaks off a peice* everytime you say something that doesn't have anything to do with that guy, you get a peice of chocolate. but everytime you think of him... *pulls back curtain to reveal paranas, electric eels, sharks, and a giant squid*... uuh.. sry wrong curtain. you have to eat.. bum bum bum bum.. SPINACH!!! MWHAHAHA!!

yeah, boys are dumb! *jumps into a pile of chocolate whilst cramming some into her mouth like augustus gloop*

Lol..but seriously..guys can be so insensitive. I got really mad at one of my guy friends last night because he was being really insensitive when I was trying to tell him my struggles. Ooh and thats a great idea, sillabub!! I like it...
It could work! I guess I'll list some

1) I'm unafraid of trying new things
2) I'm crazy and love to party and have fun
3) I can write decent music
4) I can dance and sing somewhat..lol
5) I like my eyes
6) I can make some awesome chocolate cake
7) I am a very good ear-licker...mehehe guys..

wait...you said GOOD things...aw dang it..lol

oooh..wait I still have a bunch of m&ms I'll share with Erik fans

aww..yeah..I guess some guys are stupid...so...either I get pimply or like Popeye. ...thanks Savannah and NYCgirl.

*Sighs* now I'm sad 'cuz tomorrow is monday.

oH, and cool idea! I'll try
...I'm good at math
...I try to be a good friend
...I like different stuff and am proud of it
...I have good book taste
...I'm always stylish for school...
ok, I guess that's all.

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of course we'll be praying savannahrama!! you're gonna do awesomely...I know it..

Thanks a lot. it makes me feel better knowing people actually care for me. thanks guys *huggles* I'm becoming such a sap!!!!

oh phseesh! theres nothin wrong with bein a sap! lol..but anyways....

guys I don't know why but I still feel like poo. I'm so lonely and I'm mad because my psycho-horny meany monster poopyhead ex boyfriend with the ugly face can get someone faster than I can! I'm single and after a month of breaking up I asked him why he liked someone else and he was like "Joy whaat we've been broken up a month! whats the deal?" AAAGH!! and he still is like "I'm gonna love you forever I love you so much blah blah blah!" *sniff* He's making terrible decisions still and losing his friends and hanging out with dropouts and drunkies and its hurting me..and hes asked out 3 girls in 2 months of us breaking up. He's also hurt me more than any human being ever has. Thats not love. He says he loves me and he'll wait 7 years for another chance with me. thats crap. I've been lied to, and it makes me wonder if he lied about telling me he thought I was beautiful and sweet. He's also told me I had issues and I was a bad influence and I broke his heart. I did NOTHING but be there for him when no one else would listen. I wish I had a ginormous explanation for his behavior. I wish I had someone who would love me and treat me right. I feel used and ugly..and like I mean nothing...siiigh...I need to get over this..

well don't treat dating like a competition. well it HAS been a month. it's wrong of him to still say that he loves you forever. (i may be reading this rong) but just look at it from his POV. i mean, the reason he says he still luvs you is probably because he would hate to lose you as a friend. but if he asks you on a date again, just say "no" because that will give him reason to think you are his second option on a sautrday night when he is dateless. and therefor he will take advantage of you. as for him lying about you being beautiful and sweet he was not lying. you are very sweet and someone as sweet as you has to be very beautiful. we all want the person of our dreams. but there's only little chance we will. i pray that someday you get the man that you deserve who treats you right and shall love you forever because it's the least you deserve. it takes time to get over him, hon. it depends on how much you loved him or who the person is. in your case it could be a month or maybe a year. but you will get over him and when you do it'll be time to look for the man you deserve again. but take some time out to look at all the good things about life before you find that guy, heh, and don't be so down on yourself because someone like you doesn't deserve to feel as crummy as you do right now.

:( :'(The past few weeks I have been having problems concerning my obsession with PotO. None of my friends (save one, who only partially understands) understand my obsession. Then another person says that they love erik and yet knows nothing other than GB is hung like a horse(pitiful creature!!). I HATE WANNABE PHANS!! I might be whining a little too much but I had to get that off my chest.

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thanks so much savannahrama....you rock...its just about him getting over me, well, it was a bad situation. He tried to kill himself and went to a mental hospital for 3 weeks...thats why we broke up. We were both in love with each other and he told me that he couldn't get into another relationship for a while because I meant too much to him and because I did I would take a while to get over. Actually it took him about 3 weeks to get over me. I helped him through A LOT. I was there for him and talked to him and helped him through his problems, and now I feel like it was no good because then he resulted to trying to kill himself. I gave energy and time to his needs, and I didn't expect anything in return, but him getting over me that quickly was like a slap in the face. It said to me "You are really easy to get over because you didn't mean anything to me." and now he's dating all of these super easy trashy girls because he knows they'll let him do whatever he wants. He was NOT like that before. He respected women and me. Now we're not even on speaking terms because I'm hurt and angry. After this suicide thing, he's changed and has turned so bad. I don't know why. Sorry for the rant, this site is just a lifesaver to get this off my chest. Thank you so much for the advice though, it really helped me! You are so sweet.

I'm glad i helped but it sounds like you're still having trouble. mostly the reason he is dating the trashy girls just for the reason you mentioned it's probably because he's having so much trouble getting over you that he has to fill the void with multiple things that aren't important to him. believe me you are a very sweet girl and i can understand why he ishaving so much trouble getting over you because he lost something so dear to him he covers the pain by dating other women. turns out it is just eating away at him and one day if he doesn't get over it it'll scar him for the rest of his life and something in his life may happen that involves that. so just let him date. it'll turn out later you will be dear friends and this will just be a little memory which will fade with age... (gosh i sound sappy.. and POETIC!!! WWHY?!?)

well we got out of court. I didn't get to testify and i will testify in another year or so!! when i heard the news we were still coming home with dad i cried myself silly and they had to pull me off my mom. i went to the bathroom..I looked DEAD!! i was comepletely pale, my eyes were red and the rings around my eyes were black and red and my eyes were pale blue. I even think i was close to fainting. my head was spinning on my shoulders it seemed. and finally it happened. i came so close to having ANOTHER Mental breakdown. right in front of the resturaunt. I couldn't eat and everyone was looking at me. On hte way home i felt as though i were a patient in a lunatic assylum. staring out the window with my lips slightly parted. just staring.. sobbing silently in the back listening to the POTO overture and MOTN, it always calmed me down. but once the headphones came off. it started again till i thought it would never stop. but it did. My eyes are still sore from crying so hard. I just don't understand why i couldn't testify and why i have to spend the rest of my life with my father if there is nothing wrong with my mom and that's who i long to live with! I don't know what to do anymore. it's as if.. nothing matters. not my singing, the things i loved to dream about were just stupid things that don't even matter. I'm so confused. nothing matters anymore..

aww savannahrama, you don't know how much I wish I could be there with you and hug you as tight as possible right now. The pain you are going through must be unbearable, as well as the confusion. But you know what? There is obviously a reason that you are going with your dad. You might not know it now, but in time, it will be revealed to you. I hate time. Its too slow and its confusing. But don't let this conquer your passions! Hold on to them, be who you are! Savannahrama, you are AWESOME! You've helped me and others with so much, and your spirit and kindness has touched so many people. Don't lose that because of this. I know you'll make it through. I'm here for you. I love ya.

thanks. you rock as well. am i really that effective to thers? i know my dad can offer me more education but he can't offer me a mom. and every girl needs their mother. atleast we can give virtual huggles *huggle* it fills the void. but please do me a favor by calling me "savannah". it's so much easier for the typing and it's shorter. or just call me "savy". I respond to either. I still dunno what to do. think i'm just going to go to sleep and hope i can sort this out. but thanks for the help and prayers so far. I luv ya too as well as all you guys.

no problem savannah! have an awesome night's rest! yeah...I'll be here!

hey, savy (as you prefered), i am so sry about the court thing. i'm practicly in tears after reading about it! just post all you want about how you feel! *hug hug hug hug hug hug hug!* if you ever need to talk pm me! i hope you can get through this!

Hey Savy, i'm really sorry about what happened. I'm pretty much crying!!!**virtual hugs and chocolate** If you need to talk, drop me a pm.

Thank you sOOOOOO much guys! it's good to know i have friends who care so much! but i was crying last night thinking nothing else could go wrong. i drifted to sleep. the next morning i had to do a make-up quiz b/c i missed school the day i went to court. and i didn't know we had to have one so i didn't study! I made a 100 %! i'm thinking..okay maybe i'm just lucky. i tried to hide tears all day today. i finally just tried to forget about it. well when i got into 4th period my teacher said our projects were being showed today! i freaked out! i thought they were tomorrow! and i didn't bring the cds that i was responsible for getting. turns out i left my POTO cd in school and it was rturned to me without a scratch. so i could play MOTN with our presentation. turns out we didn't have enough time! so i can bring my cds tomorrow!! savanna (this girl at my school who is awfully clingy) was folloowing me back from class. i tried walking quikly to avoid her. and she ran after me! turns out a teacher sent her back at the end of the line for running! i'm savanna-free for five minutes!! and i have an audition to be in this band!! they have recordings so i'm told and they heard about me and want me to try out for teir band! too bad it's bluegrass. but heck i don't mind singing an allison krauss song every once in a while. i think things went so bad yesterday that god HAD to smile on me today. and it seemd today like everything i wished came true! i landed every ballet move i needed to land, i did excellent today in school. but i bet tomorrow everything will be hectic!

but till then i think things are starting to look up. thanks guys for caring for me. but i don't want you to cry or worry for me. it brings tears to my eyes knowing i brought tears to yours and i'm sOO sorry. please do not cry on my account. may the lord be with you for you have certainly been with me. *hug*

yay savanna thats so awesome!! I'm so happy for you! God is definetly smiling down on you, as he is ALL the time. Don't think tomorrow will be hectic, it'll be blessed, just like today was! I'm still praying for you...and don't worry about making others feel sad. I'll share the weight with you! I'm more than happy to. I hope and pray that things continue to get better for you! Love ya! *hug*

Feeling extremely down as we are getting evicted from our place, and I keep thinkin bout my dead dad, makes me really sad, he died when I was 1...

My mother treats me like crap. She complains about paying for my school lunches. She'll refuse to take me anywhere, and if its necessary, I hear about it the whole ride there. She never cares if I'm depressed and crying. She makes fun of me and my online friends, saying they aren't real and that they don't even like me. My mother is the worst thing to happen to me. She pulls me down like a 500 pound weight. I'm never going to reach the surface for air....I'm just....done.

Kelsey